headache headache.. so many things in hand that needs me to seat down and really think through..

• Currently, i'm in the main team (of 5) to represent MI in the up-comin debates.. I have never been involved in debates before therefore this would be the first.. I don't really have any confidence in myself at all and I don't even know why I'm actually choosen?? the coach sees 'potential' in me.. what the heck?!? had a debate practice in school today with the motion "THW ban polititians from owing media companies".. i was in the opposition team which means i had to oppose this stand and say that polititians should be allowed to owe media companies.. In my team was Benjamin as well as Berry.. we learnt a lot today but i still can't find that confidence yet..hmm.. why did i even get involved in this?!? I guess the main reason is I decided to get into this is because it would be a realy good learning experience for me especially my GP.. ideas are formed faster and also sharper.. but an ugly image of me geetin shot down by POIs during a big event is just simply scary.. spoke to Miss Gong about it and she asked me to give her a reply by Monday on if I'll be able to handle this and push on.. there'll be 3 impromptu rounds and out of which she'll be rotating the 5 speakers.. i'm thinking of askin her to put me in for only 1 of the rounds.. so ya.. that's my plan for now.. hmmm..
• Sunday is the 1st Allcomers.. what can i say.. spoke to miss ong bout it already and also spoke to Mel as well.. she'll be speaking to alfred (coach) and I suppose it'll be like this for now.. I feel that i'm lettin some people down but I just can't bring this discussion to a 'bigger group' because they'll (track people) might probably not like me after I make my choice (made it already anyway).. maybe it's just simply that i'm the weakest link, especially recently when everything seems to be of problem to me.. somethings not right and I want to handle it bit by bit before getting back to form.. there's still SPH next week..
• I really need to study!!! But i'm so loaded with all this shit.. damn it.. there's still the ireland econs project that have yet to be done.. the HK students are comin soon and diploma exam is next week! F*** man!