DEATH AT THE BAY

For the pass 2 days i have been resting at home since Monday night's incident...

during training on Monday, while doing drills i felt a little pain within my chest but thought it was just a minor fatigue or something so ya.. however when i continued with training, the pain just started exhilarating.. I found myself breathless and at times giddy and paralyzed unless i force myself to move.. i thought I was gonna die at point actually..

shali, ms ong fetched me to a clinic off Jalan Jurong Kachil.. ms ong left from there and shali helped me.. he bought this 4 for $2 buns from a shop opposite the clinic and they all suck haha.. (opps).. anyway, shali thought i had to eat something so ya that's why he kinda forced me to eat it.. so i took a bite and there was freaking egg shell bits inside on the very first bite.. yucks..

then dad came and shali left.. we waited and waited for so long until i just told dad that we should go to silver cross this other clinic @ another part within the area.. there was lesser ppl there and when i became really breathless, the doctor and his assistants laid me down and connected me to some machine that's when i don't really remember whatever that happened..

all i know is that i was suffering Hypertension.. was in serious need of carbon dioxide.. the doc mentioned that i have been sick for perhaps a week already and i still kept pushing my limit thus the breakdown of the body.. so ya.. he furthur elaborated that i might have been preesured, shocked and perhaps been feeling copped up inside of me (eg. over emo..) so ya.. thank god i'm still alive and doing this now.. haha.. phew..

big thanks to shali, mel and hardie ! and the track team as well :D thanks so much or i'll probably be dead by now.. haha.. it's these special occasions that test the length of friendship..

today when i went back to school, there are some that do care and ask bout my health and there I have friends like huimin! actually, nowadays i'm beginning to feel that she's a person with no compassion.. i don't really now why, i always get this feeling that she seems to ignore anything and everything that doesn't involve her.. she's not reading this so i'm safe :) but I have been wantin to let this out for some time now so ya.. today went back just when home tutor's period was finishing and she kept insisting that I go into the hall.. i'm already so freaking cold and she's asking me to go into the hall.. does she even care ??? this isn't the first incident i noticed that she doesn't really give a shit bout anyone.. am i being over-sensitive ?? nahh it's been too many times..

anyway, (that was good relief).. haha.. i'm feelin irresponsible now because i didn't appear in school yesterday due to me being sick and i missed alot of things that zircon had to deal with.. i feel bad.. even today as they're doing the banner i'm at home resting.. haiz.. missed 2 days of school and tomorrow there's gonna be 2 tests! went for the debate 'audition' thingy just now.. it was kinda stupid because i couldn't really think, with how i was feeling just now (cold).. anyway, i screwed up the debate thingy.. so ya..

after this 'illness' if that's what we can call it.. i feel that we really have a lot of time that we cannot waste! start studying! haha :D