arhhhhhhhh.. life's shity now.. let's see, haiz.. in the mornin went to KAP met rachel and huimin to settle our brouchure (dip. exam).. huimin came so late again might as well didn't have to come.. after that, i went home to get kristen's video cam and passed it to the girls to pass back to him since i couldn't get it movin anyway.. after that stayed at home, played x-box all the way till it was time for HK meeting..so left home.. i completed the fantastic four game already.. the meetin was to finalize everything b4 leavin next wk monday.. haiz.. after that went to meet caryn and take some little gifts from her (thanks!)..

but what really make me feel so down today is that my parents tellin me that the family's income is getting lesser and lesser.. since perhaps last month actually.. i feel so worried about our future.. askin money from dad to go for this HK trip really hurts already.. noe maybe we're canselling the birthday trip to indo after i get back.. haiz.. it's so hard to describe to ppl how i feel but i more or less feel super scared and worried.. what if one day i have to quit school to start workin already? what if one day we really ran out of daily money for daily expenses..arhh.. so headache thinking of such stuff.. makes me feel like breakin down already.. but we should be strong.. when i get back from HK i raelly have to find work already.. I HAVE TO! cut down on luxurious goods (economics lesson payin off here) and go out less already.. haiz.. now i wonder where all the money went?? dada should stop smokin and drinkin for a start.. the rest of us should just start spending less.. i even overheard my parents discussing whether to stop my sisters' piano lessons.. thousand more questions runnin in me now.. woo.. when will poverty end, it struck me! haha.. damn damn..:(